My life is currently In a jam jam :)

Know what's the title mean? Bet you don't , cause I had no idea what im talking about too. ANyway after that hang with my sis in villagio yesterday, I had see the most AWESOME THING and my most WANTED thing ever for this winter . : Neck warmer

I know this is lame, and probably everyone in the continent of Europe have 'em .But i want em because I never had them, I only got scarf, scarf scarf and my pure obsession about hats has cause me to have full collection from summer to winter which pretty much shows one of the reason why i wanted Neck warmer /probably wanted to start another collections of mine in the closet. Also,They are furry and nice :) and its violet red, quite eye catching i must say, which is one of the reasons why I like it. I was going to go for the one in H&M which was a black one that have 3 roses that's knitted to each side of them. but My sis say the red one is quite better than the black one.By then, i couldn't decide anymore since i don't really have any money that time, so I have decided to bury my urge of buying them, and move on to the next stop.

Around 12,We went to the arcade later on, we bought tickets for the water ride, and as always the ride was awesome, I managed to duck down and avoid of being splash by cold water on this cold winter season. Which causes ::: the Result of- my sister got all the splashed and turn out her seat was all wet which  affected her jeans that make her look like she had an "accident" or something.

ahah :) it was a funny incident, I wish I could tell you the rest but its pretty much private since welllll, :D sometimes we had to keep some of our own privacy and also its better if we don't  kiss and tell everything. and spoil the excitement shall we?

Last message for the day :

2 weeks of Christmas Holiday

      Finally holiday - just what I needed after my mocks exam! My mock result for Business and Math is A, thank god but still I need to improve my math and science. I had experience " The nothingness" in my mind during the exam, and I surely don't want that to happen again. I want to study, I need to study, this is more likely to be my only purpose for life now.

           I still feel like crap though, I hate the fact that my life is so busy and that no one is able to understand the fact that I have no time to think or act or do something else like : Painting a canvas for my crappy living room. Its not crappy, but anyway I really don't feel like doing anything. I could just break down and cry, I could just break down and hate myself for the entire day for not doing what I have to do.

            I know I have to work hard, I know I have to be punctual and be more organized. But me, Im someone who is un--perfect in every way and I love the way how I screw things up sometimes, even though its quite unnecessary.
          I don't have a sad life , is just that Im just sick and tired of some stuff. I envy my siblings to be able to have a littles sister to count on to do some housework when they are busy for their big exams while me?

ahaha :) that cheer me up, okay gtg :)